August 2004


So this Sunday was perhaps one of the most beautiful weather days we have had this summer. Normally I’d be doing yard work, or would like to be hiking one of the mountains of western New Jersey (which I really don’t do much anymore). However, I wanted to make sure the kids got to NYC at least one day this summer and we the city is certainly more enjoyable when it isn’t 90 and 90.

We had a purpose and wanted to go see all things egyptian in NY. We took the ferry, went across down and walked from 56th street up to 86th in Central Park. The park is really one of the best features of NY because from most places you really can’t see the city through the trees. We walked up the the rear of the Metropolitan Museum to see the oldest manmade structure in the United States. An obelisk that was originally erected in Heliopolis Egypt in 2600 BC by Pharoah Tutmoses II. Around 26BC it was moved by the Romans to Alexandria, where it stood for 1900 years until it was given to William Vanderbuilt as a gift for New York City. How it got to the city and Central Park is a story in itself, but it has been standing in the Park since 1880 when it was the highest point it in the city.

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All of the news articles I have seen in the past 24 hours talking on the subject of Still governor McGreevey in New jersey are focusing on his statements, rather than the facts. Sure he is gay, sure he had an affair. Many people in many other areas of life face these situation every day. Foremen, laborers, CEOs, Presidents all have indiscretions, and the American people tolerate, or have at least have become anaesthetized to such questionable behavior. I agree that much of this is just human nature, but those elected to represent and govern us ARE held to a higher standard because their position and responsibility demand it.
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I haven’t posted in well over 2 weeks. The first few days things were just boring and there wasn’t anything worth posting. However for the past eleven (11) days I’ve been thnking about what to post about my dad. I’m still thinking about it, actually, because there are so many things I could say. For right now lets clarify that he died on the 24th of July, 2004. His death was completely unexpected, unanticipated and will have a long term impact on my life and outlook on everything.

My mom passed away about 19 months ago, and during the time in between I tried to get closer to my father. I wanted to become his friend as well as his son. For reasons beyond my understanding this did not happen and instead we wound up farther apart than we ever were. I know that my mom’s death affected him more than he ever let on, and even though he was in generally good health, and had no problem taking care of himself, I think maybe he became lost in trying to deal with the way things happened.

My father and I never had more than a minimal Father/Son relationship and we never became friends as adults. This may be in part because of his upbringing and beliefs, I’ll never know for sure. I’ll always love him, I’ll miss him also, but you should know that I missed him while he was alive as well because we had no real relationship, and I wanted one.

Over the next few days and weeks, I’ll probably write about a few of the following things, and why they were so. It might be today or maybe over the coming days and weeks. Whether anyone will care about or read them I can’t say.

  • My dad was billiant, one the smartest people most people ever met
  • I have primarily good memories of my dad from childhood and bad ones from my adult life
  • He loved me but he could never accept me as an adult, and so I couldn’t like him.
  • He had more people he called family than anyone I ever knew, but the word family had no significant meaning to him
  • I hadn’t spoken with my dad in six (6) months, and why I am still ok with that

I haven’t posted anything recently, there have been some family emergencies. I have something in the draft state.

Please check back soon…